The Cockroach Diary

Music is healing.

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w/Special Guest Eli Greenhoe

June 12th, 2025
Jalopy Theater, Brooklyn, NY
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The Cockroach Diary is a journey into the mind of a classical guitarist dealing with loneliness, creativity, and ambitions in a hollow New York City.

Stranded in a foreign country and unable to perform for live audiences, the artist begins an unlikely conversation with a periplaneta americana dwelling in the hidden crevices of her room. This unexpected relationship sets her on a path of self-discovery, leading her beyond musical scores to uncover a new, empowered identity.

Through classical and electric guitar, poetry and singing, The Cockroach Diary is an intimate and explosive experience that transcends musical genres, leading the audience into an artist’s inner world during a time of healing and self discovery.

Engineering, mixing, mastering: Jennifer Nulsen

Artwork: Manuela Simoncelli

Tracklist:

01. Invocation to the Muse

02. LU-NA

03. A Ballad

04. The World You See

05. A Nightmare

06. MA-MA

07. A Doubt

08. Supernova

09. A Desert (Prologue)

10. A Desert

11. La Giostra

The World You See

LU-NA

Lyrics

  • Where are you going, little cockroach?
    You were smelling crumbs in a forsaken shadow
    just a few seconds ago —
    I believe.

    You were regal, shaking your antennae
    like quivering branches,
    like a god of incomprehensible language —
    I remember.

    You know, in this swinging balance,
    every shadow turns to light
    when the Sun comes kissing and the darkness lies —
    I transform.

    Do you die, little cockroach, every time you change?
    Sing for me softly the memories of your pain —
    I listen.

    But you want to smell instead
    crumbs and scraps,
    the frugal bequest of your human friend —
    I understand.

    Take it, then — I keep the pleasure, you take the rest.

    And while you follow that shadow,do you mind if I stay here and dance?

  • The Moon is a Sun for dreamers

    And I want to fall asleep

    A gentle song of Water

    Will melt your fears in tears

    Sing my heart but louder

    Send your chant away

    The Air a faithful vessel

    Will lead your red lament

    Feel the Fire below the skin

    Let it shine

    Hot is love and hot is drive 

    And I want to feel alive

    Rest my soul surrender

    in the soft and humid ground

    the Earth is so abundant

    If watered with your tears

  • Time is fake like the need of a company 

    Anxiety is bullshit that feels so surreal 

    If something is touchable is the smell of your armpit 

    The weariness of feet 

    and the patterns of genes 

    I abandoned defenses on a pool made of rye 

    If life has a meaning it is certainly beige 

    like the barley if it's windy and sand during night 

    like the bile that you vomit and a ring you hold tight 

    I just stopped the time while the time keeps on moving 

    Is it joke or some magic, is it glitch or caprice? 

    I hold on to my corner and my delicious drink 

    while the world keeps on running and therefore 

    I exist

  • I see a dark wide lake of ink

    Inside I see a monster

    What would that be?

    I see the sky purple and green

    And I wonder if it will be

    And I see a fox behind an elm tree

    She wants to swim and smiles

    Why would that be?

    And I see a giant drop of black

    And I wonder: will it hit me?

    And I want to run away

    Why don't you come?

    We could look for heavens

    In the world you see

    And run run run, run away

    And run run run, run away

    And run run run, run away

    And I see we can fly

    'Cause there's no should with feelings

    Don't be afraid my soul

    In this chasing game

    And run, and run, and run until I forget to breath

    And I see the fox licking my scars

    I will stay a minute

    Close my eyes

    And tell me what you see

  • I can't tell 

    the flower from the seed 

    I can't tell 

    the meaning from the thought 

    And I am lost in foreign territories 

    I am lost in foreign territories 

    I am lost in foreign territories 

    Feed me a story feed me a story 

    What is this? Where am I? 

    I am the princess of nowhere 

    find me in the garden of loneliness 

    one soul for apples 

    two souls for cream 

    and I own your dreams 

    I am the queen of your boredom 

    my dragons eat every lost cause 

    don't panic, manic, and count until three 

    and I own your dreams 

    I need to get out of here 

    like a river 

    please let me out 

    I want to go now 

    I need to go

  • What's that worry on your eyelids 

    what's behind the curtain of your sunny room 

    where did you lock your secret dreams? 

    Perhaps they're buried in the rose garden near the walnut tree 

    Opportunities what a strange word 

    grow on a cherry tomato plant 

    did you taste it did you taste it 

    did you taste the freedom of your desires? 

    Did you taste it did you taste it

    did you taste the forbidden fruit? 

    la la la 

    Tell me the wonders of your neurons 

    tell me the measure of your love 

    what is that color on your shoulder? 

    It seems to paint of an old thought 

    it seems to paint of an old thought, 

    don't let it dry

    And chances are some fancy lies 

    you get what you're thirsty roots scream 

    what are the odds what are the odds 

    what are the odds that you find that lonely lost sock? 

    What are the odds what are the odds 

    what are the odds that your heart will beat on time this time? 

    And scream where are your dreams 

    Scream where are your dreams 

    Scream where are your dreams

  • Help 

    Can you get me out of here?  

    Stuck 

    I cannot move 

    Stuck 

    I cannot move 

    Where am I in my head? 

    Stuck 

    I cannot move 

    Can you get me out? 

    I cannot move I cannot

  • Conspiracy against us is everywhere 

    Conspiracy the air is poisonous without you 

    is poisonous without you 

    is poisonous without you 

    Conspiracy I hear it it's calling us 

    conspiracy the ground is boiling and I feel it 

    is boiling and I feel it 

    is boiling and I feel it 

    What is happening to my energy? 

    Dissolving into my delusions 

    What is happening to the world around me 

    melting a thousand degrees 

    My heart is exploding like a dying star 

    boom boom boom 

  • Where are you going coyote? 

    I see your eyes I feel you 

    Where are you going? 

    Riding your comet alone 

    Where are you going? 

    It's freezing outside here 

    a rain of debris expanding 

    like a gentle promise of tomorrow 

    But where are you going? Where are you going? 

    I can't touch you are too far away 

    So let's dance in the void so slowly 

    that our thoughts can meet our heartbeat 

    let the gravity blow gently a song of now 

    Let the distance be our secret 

    I see atoms all around me 

    I will build a bridge of stories for you to come here

    la la la

  • Gira la giostra gira la giostra gira e non si fermerà 

    gira la testa gira gira gira 

    Gira la giostra gira la giostra gira e non si fermerà 

    gira la giostra gira la giostra gira e non si fermerà 

    Danzano i tuoi sospiri sono sorrisi che ti sollevano 

    corrono le stagioni ci sono tuoni che spaventano 

    Gira la giostra gira la giostra e questa volta io scenderò 

    gira la giostra gira e questa volta io scenderò 

    Voglio sentir l’odore di un nuovo fiore color di cenere 

    voglio fuggir la sera che senza tregua mi abbraccerà 

    Gira la giostra gira ma quasi quasi io resterò 

    gira la giostra gira ma quasi quasi io resterò 

    sento un brezza amica canzone antica odor di nuvole 

    dopo l'inverno arriva come onda a riva la rondine

    In the end, we always go back to where we started just a little bit better than before

    Fermati adesso e calma il tuo battito

    ascolta quel suono lontano 

    gira la giostra e un canto ti chiama 

    e cambiando rinasco e nascendo suono 

    Vola la polvere 

    bagno la cenere

    accetto l'oscurità 

    e vivo 

    E chi vuol esser lieto sia 

    del doman non v'è certezza

We are alone again, what do we do now? Shall we go back? I feel a little tired. Perhaps we could collect the crumbs and build our planet back. In the end it wasn't all that bad it was all right

We are alone again, what do we do now? Shall we go back? I feel a little tired. Perhaps we could collect the crumbs and build our planet back. In the end it wasn't all that bad it was all right

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